loopy_lou
10-04-06, 09:49
Hi all hope you are all doing ok.
Im posting today because I had such a bad weekend. My boyfriend went out on Friday night ( I had spent all week worrying about it , is he going to be ok, will he make it home, what if he gets into a fight,) all these are stupid thoughts because he is a sensible bloke! I new he would be fine deep down but I couldnt stop worrying about it all week. So my sister invited me to stay at hers Friday so It took my mind off of it, I was quite looking forward to it, and when I got to hers I was fine, we had a good night apart from feeling abit out of it and distant. Well we went to bed and I turned my phone off and I couldnt stop all these thoughts rushing in and out my head, I worked myself up so much worrying about him that I puked and then had serious panic attacks. I went from my sisters 6:30am and tried to get into my flat twice with no aviale ( B/f was still in bed), he then finally got up and i was a wreck, he said i was hysterical crying and stuff, I cant remeber hardly any of what happened though. I dont think that I am going to be able to cope much more with it :( I dont want to be locked up but I feel like im going proper nuts! Sorry this is a long one everyone hope all ok xxx
Im posting today because I had such a bad weekend. My boyfriend went out on Friday night ( I had spent all week worrying about it , is he going to be ok, will he make it home, what if he gets into a fight,) all these are stupid thoughts because he is a sensible bloke! I new he would be fine deep down but I couldnt stop worrying about it all week. So my sister invited me to stay at hers Friday so It took my mind off of it, I was quite looking forward to it, and when I got to hers I was fine, we had a good night apart from feeling abit out of it and distant. Well we went to bed and I turned my phone off and I couldnt stop all these thoughts rushing in and out my head, I worked myself up so much worrying about him that I puked and then had serious panic attacks. I went from my sisters 6:30am and tried to get into my flat twice with no aviale ( B/f was still in bed), he then finally got up and i was a wreck, he said i was hysterical crying and stuff, I cant remeber hardly any of what happened though. I dont think that I am going to be able to cope much more with it :( I dont want to be locked up but I feel like im going proper nuts! Sorry this is a long one everyone hope all ok xxx