Originally Posted by
crystal17
Hi Scared, I really relate to this. Its been worse the past week when its been in all the news about Gary Speed killing himself and all the reports saying he was perfectly happy and had no reason to end his life.
It got me thinking that it could happen to any of us and last week I started having thoughts pushed into my head about different suicide methods and what would be the best one. I didnt want these thoughts!!!!
I dont feel suicidal at the moment and have never seriously contemplated doing it but sometimes I get this barrage of thoughts and worry that I might one day not care and just do it! So I do understand what you are going through.
I also worry about hurting others and wonder if I should be allowed in situations where I have access to people I might hurt or objects I could use as weapons!! It sounds crazy to type this. I would never tell anyone.
I'm really glad you're getting help and moving forward, PM me anytime you wanna chat, and be reassured that you are NOT the only one struggling with this.