Hello people
I'm soooo up and down at the minute. I'm either ontop of the world or don't even feel like I have the energy to get up. I'm always so exhausted no matter how many hours I sleep. It doesn't help that my anxiety is worse and I can rarely get out.
The only way I can get rid of this depression is to self harm which I hate because it upsets my boyfriend as he worrys so much and cares about me. But I get so angry and frustrated I just don't know what to do when I get to that point.
What makes it worse is that I don't want to stop self harming. I've done it for so many years its always been their when I'm too stressed and I genuinly feel it helps me. But my boyfriend nags me saying I shouldn't self harm and I need too find another way.
But on the other hand I like going the gym and college and I hate having to either cover up or take my jacket off and deal with the awkward staring and whispering.
I suppose I'm just confused and just not sure what to do. So I was wondering if anyone is dealing with anything similar or has any advice for me.....please???? X