I'm freaking out. I have just booked a colonoscopy privately, because the wait on the public list was going to be too long, but now I'm regretting it! It's next week! Freaking out, but trying really hard to put it one side. I'm most scared about being sedated while it's happening. I really really don't like the thought of being out of control like that. I actually wish I could just be put under anaesthetic. I'm also really worried they will find cancer and it's too far gone to be treated. Wish I didn't have to go through this, but I know it's for the best. :(