Constant health anxiety all day everyday for 3 months. I am having trouble eating, because of choking sensation, and i am generally not as hungry and feel weak. Diazepam makes me worse for some reason, I can't bare this any longer. Constant fear of heart attack, stroke, cancer etc.
I'm not on any medication, if diazepam makes me worse, what's lexapro going to do? I would probably be even more suicidal.
I just feel like I want to end it all, parents are getting tired of me, i'm getting tired of me.
I barely remember the old me. So close, something's going to push me over the edge, i can feel it. I just don't want to wait till it's too late.
I know most of you will say there is light at the end of the tunnel, but i'm in a bad mentality and feel like I'm dying, and I want to end it before something else does such as a heart attack or stroke.
It took me a lot of strength to write this, as I am usually positive, but I can't take it. Any input would be helpful.
I don't want to take lexapro because of the increased stroke risk and heart attack risk.
Thanks.