My anxiety through this pregnancy has been pretty good, until I finished work and went on maternity leave three weeks before giving birth. At that point it really flared up and I became fixated on my almost four year-old son and have convinced myself that he is showing signs of autism. This is a fear I have had before. He has a number of behaviours that are red flags for autism such as some repetitive talking and movements of his hands. His language and social skills are on track, he does well at pre school, has plenty of friends and a good imagination.
Since my daughter being born almost two weeks ago the anxiety has got worse. I feel like I don't want to do anything and all I do is fixate about my son 24/7. I have been googling non stop and I know of course that's feeding the worry. The thing is I really do think there is something not right with him. I have booked an appointment with my GP about him but I know he won't be able to give me answers right away, he may refer him for further assessment which is going to make my anxiety even worse. I just want to be able to enjoy my family without this constant feeling of dread and fear :(