Hi Owen,

Thanks so much for your response! Means a lot!

I do try and find what my true values and wants are in life but I am punished with such severe guilt that I'm letting someone down. I feel like my life is just being productive, keeping up appearances and making people happy which I love doing but I put myself last and I have no idea how to be stronger for myself without appearing selfish or difficult. It actually boggles me how people do it. I transform to different versions of me to gel with everyone and it's not normal. I have been thinking about doing educational studies again as I do enjoy studying and will give me something to work for!

Thanks