I'm new here. I'm having my first "routine" colonoscopy tomorrow, and I am terrified they will find something. People keep trying to reassure me that the test is nothing. I'm NOT afraid of the test. I'm afraid of the results! I have a cancer phobia, along with a magnitude of other anxieties that sometimes make me feel less than normal. All my thoughts go to worst case scenario immediately. My doctor has me on Paxil, which has helped me at least get out and about in the world again. But NOTHING seems to help with my HA and cancer phobia.