Weirdly quite calm at the moment.

Anyway, I noticed my cervix was red so I went to the doctor and she said it was ectropion. She said she couldn't see any ulceration or anything cancery.

I looked again later and could clearly see a white plaque-like area. I accepted it could be mucus or something, so checked again on subsequent days. It was still there. I showed the photos to my doctor and she could see it. However, she couldn't examine me properly again because I'd started my period (unless that was cancer bleeding). She did say that it wasn't anything malignant because it wasn't there when she checked (it definitely was, she just missed it) and she would be surprised if lots of nurses and consultants hadn't spotted it during my miscarriage. However, she couldn't tell me what else it could be. It definitely looks like cancer. I've been tested for infection and it's clear.

I'm going back in soon when my period has stopped, and she's booked me to see a gynecologist just in case.

I also sent the photos to an oncological consultant on JustAnswer and spoke to him on the phone. He said it wasn't cancer. However, I'm pretty sure the doctors on that site just say anything to reassure you!

I have had at clear smears in the past, the most recent being December 2016. However, smears aren't always accurate. Especially if the cancer had started in the cervical canal.

It just looks messed up. All red (supposed ectropion) and then this white plaque-like area. I honestly don't know what that could be apart from cancer. Or maybe CIN at the very least. I'd share the photos here but they may not be welcomed :')

In light of my premonition as well I do think this could well be cancer. Not 100%, but it seems very likely to me.

The last man I was with was very promiscuous and could easily have given me HPV.

I have occasionally had mid-cycle spotting in the past, and occasionally bleeding after sex. Recently I've had some lower abdominal discomfort but have attributed that to ovarian cysts and general post-miscarriage issues. My HCG is also somewhat elevated (latest result tomorrow) and cervical cancers can excrete HCG. I really shouldn't have HCG left in my system now from the miscarriage. It's been several weeks. I've also had some discomfort occasionally during urination, going back a few months.

So yeah :/ amazed I'm not panicking more. Just 6mg of diazepam has helped. Don't know if anyone has any ideas what else this could be, if not cancer or CIN? I can't see for the life of me what else it could be and even my doctor said "I don't know"!

Thanks all.

Jenny