Paranoia and high anxiety
hello everyone as you can see this is my 1st post here. I suffer from Panic attacks , high anxiety and intrusive thoughts.It al started about 9 months ago where i was having 10 PA a day and some during the night as well. My obsessional thougts are many and vary allthye time. I used to be afraid of going to sleep and hurt my partner while at sleep and then wake upinthe morningto find the mess. well now thats not entirely gone butits a lot less. However lately in the past 3 weeks i have been obsessing about been spied on. I know no one is spy on me but i amvery aware of people in other rooms where i am not in like at work i have the fear that they are talking about me. I do have problems at work where they could be talking about me as they know I suffer from anxiety but i felthey are plotting against me to get me out. I also hafe the sensation or fear of paranoia i dont know what thats why its scary that wheni look at windows there is a camera or someone looking at me. I feel watched and i know that i mam not but my anxiety makes me paranoid and i begin to belive this. The other day my anxiety was so high that i started obsessing about somebody listening with miscrophones behind my dorror listeningto waht i say!!! Its pure madeness. I read about schizophrenia and they say that one symptom is that tehperson has persecutory delusions that other are complotting against him. Now i have traumatic events that happen in life where i was spied on. And now i leave with a neighbour from hell that reperted metopolice many times for noises. So there is a link with tath but my fear goes behond that.. the othet day i was very anxious andi started obsessing aboutthat i was followed everywhere iw ent and there were many peole involved in it.. like i saw someone on the phone and they looked at me and i thougt " are they saying " heis here now" and tat kept on for my entire journey tilli got home... then i startretd to thik are they at the door? Now iknow its crazy but its my experience. Am i schizophrenic??? I am so scared.... i am scared of everything and theonly thing that i dois to close my eyes. This makes me feel at peace for awhile. Please support guys and girls.....
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