Hi everyone. I have been struggling with OCD for about 3-4 years and I am on meds and in therapy. They have helped but the thoughts still creep in. I've had obsessions about rabies( specifically with bats" on and off and now it's really getting out of hand and I feel like running straight to the hospital.
So I noticed 2 small scabs on my right arm a little over 1cm apart. I of course started worrying it was a bat bite but I reassured myself that there are no bats at my parent's place and no entry points for it to come in. Then I remembered that I had taken a nap during church because I was really exhausted from a NYE party. We have a couch in the back to the side in this hallway where we have classrooms for sunday school so i just laid down as I listened to the service. I'm afraid that I was bitten in my sleep. I never noticed anthything when my parents woke me up, as I quickly checked around since I am paranoid about bats. BUT I'm afraid that it went down the hallway and that's why I didn't see anything or hear anything. I asked my priest today if he noticed any bats in the hall or if we have any unscreened windows and he said no. But my memory is playing tricks on me and now I'm imagining that one of the window screens had a tear in it therefore the bat could have came in and bit me and then flew away into some other area of the building.
I can't think straight and I just keep on googling. Part of me thinks that the scabs are a bit too far apart to belong to a little brown bat ( that's what we got a lot of in California and the US in general) I even found photos of bat skulls with a dime for reference and I was like wow ok to maybe my "bite" is a bit too wide for where the teeth would be.
I'm also freaking out since this happened about 5 days ago that by the time I get to have the shots I'll be too late. I am freaking out so much and I can't focus on class or my job or anything. It's really difficult.
How many of you guys have found symetricall 2 scab, bite looking thingies and thought OH GOD RABIES?
I don't want to get shots because idk if my insurance will cover them and I'm already going to be paying money for the hospital because i had a terrible stomach flu and needed IV and meds.
I'm sorry for the long post. I'm just so close to loosing it like I did 2 years ago about rabies. I thought I was over these rabies related meltdowns.