I'm a mess, I'm trying to be strong and fight this anxiety but I just can't. I have such bad bowel problems, I can never go, I always am so full of gas. I have this constant ache on my upper left side that feels like its brused. I have had some investigation done. I had an abdominal and pelvic ct scan, I have had blood work, I also had a barium enema. All has come back ok but with the barium it said that that there is some tortuoity and redundancy of the colon with incomplete visualization of some portions but everything they see looks normal. I can't accept I'm ok and don't have cancer because I am still having all these bowel problems. I had a colonoscopy 4 years ago and it came back good but I'm wondering if I should ask to have another one done. This is making me feel like I should just end my life because I'm so so sick of worrying. I have been to counselling nothing seems to help. I feel like I'm going to die soon.