Re: I backed out of my Holiday at the last minute...
Please don't beat yourself up about this. I do think there's a time & place for us to 'push ourselves' but it's also important for us to listen to our bodies and recognise when it's just TOO FAR right now.
This wasn't a once in a lifetime trip, you can and will go again, but right now clearly isn't the best time for it. I'll bet being so tired from the night before didn't help. Being away from home & alone can be really unpleasant when you're feeling anxious. I've travelled alone quite a lot and on one trip to Thailand I had a REALLY dreadful day where I couldn't leave my hotel room due to anxiety and it was horrid & I felt (and was!) so far from home and safety.
Travelling is a huge thing anyway for anxiety sufferers and doing it alone is especially hard. Is there someone understanding in your life who would be prepared to take a short trip abroad with you just to test the waters? After my anxiety 'episode' I travelled with my partner to Greece and it was still incredibly hard but having him there was a great source of comfort.
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