Thanks Venusbluejeans, I didn't realise there was a benefits section.
When you had your home visit for universal credit, was that for looking for work or for esa? i'm not up to speed with universal credit, its not been fully rolled out in my area yet.
Thanks

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[QUOTE=Scass;1803134]That’s such a shame you missed your appointment, I really had faith that you’d make it.

Do you not go out at all?

It’s up to you what you decide to do now, I don’t believe in piling more pressure on yourself, but I do believe in applying yourself & doing whatever you can. It’s so hard, I do know. But you have to believe that you can do it.



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I actually thought I was going to go too :( As soon as I got up today I could feel my heart going and the giddy feelings etc, they died down a bit with the propranolol. It was just the thought of not being able to leave once I got in there that did it.

I do go out, not as much as I used to. Its just any kind of appointment where I know I cant leave, that's what triggers me.
I also have sleep issues, I end up being awake most nights and having to nap during the day which means I don't get much done.

I really don't know what to do as a next step. If I sign off jsa I might just be reinforcing my irrational fears. I was doing pretty good a few months ago too, I had been doing voluntary work for over a year, although I had rang in a lot of times to say I couldn't make it, usually because i'd been awake all night and just felt really s*itty :(
I told my manager I would be back when I was feeling better. I just wish I could beat this and get back to 'normal'