I thought about ending it a few times in the past, but I get so angry about being denied a happy life or a life period because of my fears.

So I go out with the intent of fighting, confronting "it" only to be beat back by my own mind and return to where I've always been.

Maybe it is our purpose in this life (if you believe in this sort of thing), maybe we're meant to overcome this one obstacle before we move ahead?