Self reassurance is important, you have to undo a lot of negative reinforcement you fed into your brain for nearly a year. Its time to turn it around now - everytime a doubt comes into your head, a 'but', a 'what if', you must religiously come back with a powerful statement and repeat it out loud. TO get that list of powerful statements you just need to look at the things people have said to you on this thread...eg....
I saw an expert in the relevant field.
I had a thorough examination, he saw no cancer.
This expert spends his life dealing with cancer, he would know it just from my symptoms - let alone looking internally.
Various doctors leading up to this also agreed it was NOT sinister.
My symptoms are the same as many others who have had hemmie problems, they have told me many times on this thread.
I feel well, I've not lost weight.
The last few days my stomach felt fine.
I KNOW that the spot of blood happen after a dry hard stool.
Etc etc.....you should be able to get about 30 things I would think.