Thank you so much Scass! I think you made a very good point. I'm trying my best to just- do it. Not cope out. So while it might be a struggle, someday I'll enjoy it all and get back into the swing of it again! Like I've been having a rough evening with physical issues (trying not to list things here) and ride it out without freaking out everything! Which is never fun but doing my best. Tried to get myself set up for bed now since it feels like the worst of it is over and I might be able to settle!