In tears..

[belle]

When my husband said he wanted a divorce a couple of weeks ago, i managed to get him to stay by saying i will take Cipralex. Its now got to 6 days before i have to start taking them, i REALLY don't want to take them though. This is the conversation we've just had.

HIM: You can't even get to the Chinese, you're F* useless. I am ONLY staying here because you said these pills are magic and they will work, if you don't take them, stop taking them or they don't work i am F*ing off, and want a divorce. Simple as that.

ME: (Sniff)

HIM: Do you understand?

ME: (Saying nothing - sitting here crying).

Whats worse is that my mother leaves for Italy in 3 weeks, so if he leaves because i am not taking the pills and shes away, then i am in trouble.

I am SO fricking tired of this shit. Sometimes another alternative to this life seems so much more appealing.

x

[SammiB]

sorry hun but he sounds like its every possibility he'll leave which ever way or not.

its not your fault hun and there is no way you are f-ing useless, if he can't see that your struggling then he has to deal with it himself.

I say try the meds, i think they might be some help and maybe even better in the future. at least its an option to try then no options at all

hope everything goes well for you blue.

[kazzie]

Hmmmmmm not sure what to suggest

I guess you either take them or lie and tell him youve taken them

Not much use I know so heres a hug

Luv Kaz x

[Karen]

Sounds like a horrible situation.

It seems he is using this to bully you to me but that's just my opinion.

Whether you take the medication is up to you really hun.

Don't know what else to say but have a hug anyway

Karen xx

[darkangel]

Ask yourself this one question - Do I deserve this?

Think honestly and truthfully, NOBODY deserves to be treated to this bullying and appalling abusive behaviour.

Pills or not, he is not supportive and this is not helping you.

I know its not easy to make a drastic decision hunni, but for your own sanity and peace of mind, it sounds like a change needs to be made.

It appalls me - why - cos Ive been through the same SH*T, similar conversations, etc, etc.

Luv and hugs and my thoughts are with you Blue

Darkangel x

[belle]

Hi all..

My life just seems to be a constant pile of crap. If its not bad enough fighting against agroaphobia and panic attacks, i am up against my husband too.

Just for one second want him to say "Its okay Sarah, you know i love you." But no, instead i get demands and ultimatums. How the hell is that supposed to help? I KNOW its going to be frustrating living with someone like me, that i can understand, but what happened to "In sickness and in health"? I would NEVER give up on someone because they were sick.

I would love a big fat hug from someone who really undertands what its like to live this life, day after day.
I've got no one.

x

[SammiB]

A Big Fat Hug Coming Your Way




i''m so sorry your in this situation, and nothing is helping right now, not the hugs we give you and especially not the abuse he gives.

Its not about you, its him, its how he wants it all, the perfect life and the perfect wife.

a change does have to be made, maybe if he went you would see how much that he wasn't helping and maybe you could make a change in yourself as you'd have less stress to deal with.

I know you love him, but use your love for yourself hun

xx

[Karen]

Sarah - I wish I could give you a real hug but all I can do is send you a virtual one.

All I can say is I do know what it is like to live with this every day - minus the husband - but with other difficuties.

Wish I could make things better for you

Karen xx

[Karen]

One other thing Sarah - has your doctor suggested to help as well as medication?

What about some practical help?

Karen xx

[belle]

SammiB,

I could never love myself. I've caused this situation with my husband by..

A) Not being strong enough to get over this
B) Perhaps at times not trying hard enough
C) Not being a good enough wife
D) Not being able to do "normal" things
E) Not making him happy...
F) Not being good enough to love and stay with despite my illness....
G) Being usless
H) Being a burden
I) Not being able to contribute financially

In fact, i HATE myself. I hate myself for letting this sh*t consume almost a fricking 1/3 of my life!!!!!!!!!!!!