Waiting for a hospital appointment at the moment following tests which sounds as though it could be Inflammatory Bowel Disease Already struggling with depression and anxiety. I feel lost. Can't live like this anymore but how do I even start to change things. I'm tired and losing hope that I can beat any of this and start to live. I don't live at the moment I'm just existing. I hate my life and I hate me. This further health problem is just the last straw and I can't cope with it. I know that someone I've got to change my thinking but just don't know how to try anymore. My glass isn't half empty it's totally drained. Someone please tell me it doesn't have to be like this!