Hi Pulisa, thank you for the reply x
Oh my Mam keeps the monitor in a place I'll never find. She often jokes and tries to say it's because she paid good money for it and she doesn't want anyone touching it. It's not only because of me, My Da was testing his own Blood pressure last year and ended up breaking her monitor- which he just kept quite about and put it away without a word It's not often she tests it, I think in her own way by doing it randomly she thinks she helping by showing me it's not actually that high/bad? Like I know I was probably falling into my bad thoughts alot- which I do alot about feeling like a burden (a big issue I speak about in therapy, not just to do with HA) and those thoughts were being allowed when I wrote this post. Like 90 percent of the time, my Mam does try to understand and help- we've been getting a little better at talking about everything. Little steps because it can be hard on both sides.