I suffer from ulcerative colitis and had a pretty bad flare up lately where I was going to the bathroom up to 20 times a day. A lump formed and has gotten a lot bigger very quickly to the point of looking like I have a grape attached to me. It’s incredibly painful and no cream is easing the discomfort or making it shrink. I’m trying not to panic about it and tell myself it’s a hemorrhoid but I can’t shake the anxiety of it being something serious (I have major cancer anxiety). I called up my doctors but due to the current situation, they aren’t seeing patients and I can’t get it examined. I’ve never had a hemorrhoid this big or painful before, it’s causing an intense amount of pressure and aching down below. I panic googled and saw things about getting clots in them and stuff but I’m just wondering if it’s normal for them to be as painful as this one is? I cannot ignore it at all.