Fishman, I'm so sorry to hear about your dad passed.

Whilst times are going to be very hard for you right now you need to remember just how much you did for him. Much more so than any other in your family. I bet he taught you loads and you repaid him with how you cared for him in the years he needed it. In time that will be more prominent than sorrow.

We're all here for you mate. Do what you have to to get through this awful time but don't let doubts upset you and don't run yourself ragged looking after everyone else