Re: Ectopic heart/beats - some help
Hi Everyone,
It's been ages since I posted on here . . . . found myself browsing the boards to catch up with people and lo and behold on this thread I notice a reply from myself 3 years ago on ectopic beats and drinking water to inhibit them. I felt I had to come on here to give hope to people struggling with anxiety, ectopic heart beats, heart worries etc ....
3 years ago my whole life was managed around how I felt, my world was small - sometimes as small as my bed (ie couldn't get out of it as too scared) However now - I am not 'magically' cured nor do I profess to be able to do absolutely anything but time has taught me patience and acceptance.
To say I wish I had managed it all differently would be futile. However I feel I have learned a lot about myself and understanding of others who suffer in a similar way.
I was worried that I may have scarred my son for life with always 'running' away from things or just not managing to do them - Not so - we have the most wonderfully balanced, caring, confident 12 year old son. At a recent parents evening we were filled with a real joy of being told to go home and have more and fill the school with more like him! - proud parent talking and all that! Seriously - he just seems to have such an incredible insight into managing emotion and he talks to me about what I have been through when we go on our 5 mile dog walks in the countryside!
I think what I am trying to say is - I have been prompted to reflect on how my life has developed since my reply on this thread 3 years ago .. .
I am overjoyed that I can write that life has improved greatly, I am no longer on any medication, I manage my 'heart' fears rationally and enjoy living in the moment and not constantly worrying about what if? If I do feel a 'thud', or feel a sudden weakness, or get a pain 'in my heart region' or wake to a racing heart in the night etc ...I can generally rationalise it and think - been there, done that etc.
Now, for those of you where I was 3 years ago - please don't be dis-heartened and think - oh it's all right for her. I genuinely know that other peoples experiences can sometimes seem poles apart to what you are going through. My prayer for you is that you will learn acceptance and that one day you will be able to reflect positively about your whole experience.
I can honestly say that I appreciate the smaller things in life - ie being able to have the freedom to walk, shop, go to concerts, be alone because there was a time when I couldn't.
Love to all
God Bless
Dawn x
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