My diet has NOT changed,
I do NOT excerise,
I AM angry.
Only a few months ago i was looking into liposuction that i was going to pay for with my University grant money as i believe you can't put a price on personal happiness/acceptance. Anyway the costs were huge (as expected) and the actual loss was variable.
Let me back up to 5 weeks ago, 29 yr old 6ft 16 stone male.
Majority of my weight in the gut area.
Not a heavy eater or a heavy drinker, infact i place the change on my SSRI i took 2 years ago but can't for the life of me remember the bloody name of it.
So lately my anxiety has been through the roof, heard some news off my best friend (with whome im for the most part in love with) that is devastating to happen to any female. This news was given to me last week.
I am the type of person who weighs himself once a week, usually after a bath to keep an eye out that im not going tip over 16 stone. THIS WEEK i weigh myself because im getting really bad headaches, phantom arm aching pains and tense shoulders (more than usual on the shoulders) and i find im 14 stone 2 pounds.
Im disgusted and anoyed that i could lose so much weight and to be perfectly honest a little scared to what depths i could now sink too.
When i said to my psychologist this Wednesday past that i was anoyed she asks me " why are you anoyed? " to which i barked out " because i should'nt have lost it this way!! ".
Yes i lost control, the stress i carry now reminds me slighlty of 2003 when things started, when i passed out for the first time in my life but even THEN i didnt lose this much weight.
Sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Constantly dizzy, feeling sick and my trip to the library 300 metres away is another story.
Sorry for the rant but if i cant do it here, then where?
Cons