so ill post here. Ok wher do i start? the background:
in nov 06 i needed a root canal, dentist attempted it, didnt work so as hed aggravated gum gave me antib's. Went xmas shopping & felt like was having a panic attack, hadnt eaten so grabbed some coke thinking needed sugar,later felt like what i can only describe as
My blood feeling “prickly” I still had over an hr left at work & boss wouldn’t let me go home, I was really panicking couldn’t see or anything felt like I was drunk! Mum & dad rushed me to dr & they said the antib’s had given me a urine infection that leaked into my blood!!!
In Jan I had the most awful flu & a horrid cough! My wedding was in may that year & all of a sudden id have constant panic attacks-even if the TV was too loud I couldn’t breathe! 2 months later(!) was diagnosed with pleurisy from the flu-the reason I couldn’t breathe! Mum thought it was the stress of wedding planning
I didn’t know why at the time that’s why I had the panic attacks!!
Then and still to the present day I have like a weird choking feeling in my throat which ive now learned after all this tim occurs when im stressed or eat fruit (?) ive had camera in throat to stomach and down my nose & the drs cant find anything-they thought it was reflux for a while as symptoms were similar to heartburn, the only thing I can find which is similar & they agreed is “pharyngeal spasm” and the only cure for that is botox!!!
Then in September I was diagnosed with work related depression & was signed off for 6 weeks & eventually left for my health then I got gastroenteritis!
Xmas 07 was the worst ever! Thanks to my work messing up my reference id waited t3 months to start a really good well paid job & they had to employ someone else as my work took too long L As you can imagine this didn’t help my depression.
I started a new job in Feb but it wasn’t the job for me so im now waiting on CRB clearances before I start.
Anyway this whole time ive still had anxiety & dr has put me on antidepressants but TBH I think its more anxiety that’s causing the depression! And the matter of not having had a stable job for a while. Im on the list for counselling (16 weeks wait!)
Due to having one illness after another for so long ive also developed terrible hypochondria-twice today ive had a pain where my heart is im hoping it was wind but a terrible panic comes over me & I think im gonna die of a heart attack!!
I get awful palpitations-have just had a stomach bug & am terrified of being sick-luckily I opnly was twice but my breathing played up (I get shallow breathing a lot) and my vision keeps going blurry
I also have a fear of losing loved ones-my husband rides 20 miles to work each day & im constantly thinking what if he falls off & gets run over!
This whole thing is ruining my life and our marriage its not even our 1st anniversary yet, I just cry all the time but I cant help it!
Well done if you’ve got this far im sorry its so long just felt you need to know the whole story.