Re: Relationships.
Hi,
I could have written this post about myself. I get exactly the same feelings whenever I think anyone's even remotely interested in me let alone when I'm dating someone. Mine started when I was 16 and I went on a date with someone I really liked and afterwards I got such an anxious and awful feeling I didn't understand what it was but it made me feel so bad I didn't see the chap again.
I'm now 25 and I hate to say but it hasn't gone away, it's got easier and I've dealt with it a little better but it's still there. I get anxious whenever I go on a date with someone, I still can't put my finger on why I do it at first I thought it was some kind of defensive thing to stop myself getting hurt but as time moves on I think it's just me. Last year I actually managed to find someone who didn't make me anxious, who understand who I was and what I was going through and they never pushed me. For other reasons the relationship broke up but it gave me hope that it can happen and I will find someone who I am comfortable enough to make my anxiety go away and who I can be myself with.
It's not easier, the feelings get overwhelming when you don't want them to. It's hard to control and sometimes as hard as you try its not worth fighting them.
If it's any help I still have faith that when I find the right person the anxiety will be worth fighting and I'll be able to be happy and move on. I believe you have to believe this or somewhere along the way you'll just give up. Have faith in yourself that your capable of beating it and try not to worry, at the age of 17 you have plenty of time ahead of you to find ways around it.
Hope this helps, please PM me if you want to chat further.
Lucy xx
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