I hate to sound like a loser but I post msgs and sometimes they don't get responded to... and I get scared that maybe no one wants to reply to them... I'm sufferin bad right now, Day 23 without alcohol and just very down/sad, on Lamictal 125mg again was just upped and 0.75mg of Risperdal I'm tapering off the Risperdal because I need to get off of it since it's made me worse, I just want to be happy, and get up one morning *or afternoon* and say ... "Hey it's great to be alive" lately it's been "It sucks to be alive".