I am having a very difficult day. I am having one panic attack after another. I had someone totally stress me out today. Basically the person aired some of my very personal business to everyone I work with because she was mad at me. I worked it out with the people I work with but this person verbally attacked my mother, why I don't know. My mother and I both have panic disorder, OCD, and high blood pressure. Plus I have phobias of the sun, the night sky, and anything to do with outer space. I am constantly worrying and double checking the sky. I saw the sun about 45 minutes before sunset and totally freaked out. I called myself facing my fears by looking at pictures of the sun on the internet and ran across some picture of a star in a different galaxy and freaked. I am afraid of the end of the world. I don't want anything happening to my family and friends or anybody for that fact. I know I need to have more faith and trust in God. I don't miss church service. I am working on things by praying, reading my bible, taking a bible class, going to counseling with my pastor, taking my medications, staying away from people who are stressors, refraining from double checking information over and over again on the internet. I will read something over and over and it will comfort me for a moment and then later I start panicing and read it again. It takes up literally hours of my day and the stuff is stuff I can't control but God can, and I worry about anyway. I ready for the crazy farm. A couple months ago, my best friend stayed by my side one night praying and talking to me because I was ready to commit suicide to make the attacks stop. I started counseling with my pastor immediately after. He really understands and cares. His wife will talk to me in the middle night if I need her. I am really trying but right now I want to keep right on crying because I am tired of the panic attacks and anxiety, and of constantly being afraid. My pastor is busy the next few days with special services at church and visiting ministers. He has assistants who are very good with counseling also, I just hate bothering anyone. I going back to my crying now. Any replies would be welcomed. donna1967