I know exactly how you feel, it is after all in our own minds and ultimately under our control, which is why its so frustrating when it crops up. I have had the fear of sick all my life, but it was never really a phobia as it wasn't detrimental to my life. I'd never experienced panic, and would get on with my life, not giving sick a second thought. Last October however I had a bad experience and ever since my life has been ruled by my emetophobia and panic attacks. Every minute of the day is a struggle, and my life has just been turned upside down. It's so frustrating to think that I never used to be effected by this, but now it rules me. I am half the person I used to be, am becoming agoraphobic...I just don't know when this 'phase' will end and whether I'll ever get back to how I used to be. Its horrible to think that this is my life now. I'm desperate to get the old care-free me back!