happy christmas to eveyone and i hope 2006 is so much better for all.
anyway, i went out with work 2 weeks ago on our xmas do, and i did fine with my anxiety, felt ill before hand but got out and did so well.
but i feel so lonely, there was only a couple of girls i was talking to and then more people came and i was left on my own. i felt like such a tool!
then on xmas eve, i was meant to meet up with some freinds, so me and my other half went to the pub where we were meeting them at 7pm, but they didn't turn up til 9.30pm and stayed for only half an hour and went back into town, somewhere where i really can't face going to anymore.
i just feel so lonely and wonder why people don't like me and find me so boring. i can understand as i haven't really got that much of a life. i moved to bolton 4 years ago and moved away from my closest friends and family and made a few new friends but, 1 has had a baby, the other has just got married and the other who i felt closet to has started going out with an old school mate and doesn't bother with me anymore.
My boyfriend has been brilliant and i love him so much it hurts, but I just feel so alone and am dreading going out tomorrow night for new year, i don't want to be sat there like a lemon again.
Has anyone got any advice to help me be more interesting and make people like me.
I just feel like there's no point in going out anymore, and i have come so far to get going out again!
Looby
xxx