I don't know where its coming from.
Yesterday, I was doing Hook to Basingstoke on the M3 when from out of no where came panic and I had to pull over - I've not been like that in ages, in fact I was ready to do that run on my own.
And today I've got a colposcopy at the Hospital and I'm having the most bad anxiety attack worrying about being sick, fainting,and am really worried about just doing the drive to the Hospital. I've got to go alone as no one else is around they're all at work which is fair enough. And I need my partner to manage the kids.
What is wrong with me, I was doing soooo well. And it not like any of this is new to me. I've also got a very nervous stomach today - if you get what I mean!!
Wish me luck, I'll do my best, although I'm taking the back roads to the hospital and back I might be able to relax better if I'm not flustered with the traffic.
Oh bum I feel like a right failure I wish my body could be as strong as my head. Does that make sense. I know I'm being silly, but am still sitting here shaking.
Speak to you all later and I'll let you know how I got on.
Ruth