Heyy guys, sadly haven't been on the forums recently because I haven't been in a state to help myself, let alone others >.<
I'm currently on holiday, in Barcelona, surrounded by my family. I should be having the time of my life, this was my week away from everything just to enjoy myself, and I just can't. It's all getting unbeatable and I'm getting stuck for solutions.
Every day feels like a struggle. I lack motivation, I lack confidence, I lack the "get up and go" that made me me. I was outgoing, fun (if I do say so myself :P) and happy, and now I'm none of these things. A month in, the meds haven't helped, and I'm feeling no better.
Aside from myself, I'm now terrified about my girlfriend's state. She's started self harming again, her wrists :/ She hasn't done it in about 3 years and, with my help and support, we tackled her depression about a year ago, I thought it was going to stay beat, it hasn't. I try to stay strong, not to let on how bad I am in myself because at end of the day, worrying about me isn't gonna help her. But I've got to a point now where I can't take it. I'm worried enough about myself, I haven't got a clue what to do about supporting her. I don't know what's made her bad again but it feels like we're dragging each other down, I just don't know how to break the cycle guys :/
I guess what I'm asking for is help on how to help, if that makes sense. How do I help her, and still have enough energy left to help myself. Sadly fighting this battle alone, can't do it much more.
On a positive note, I'll be on the forums more, and I apologise for my recent absence!
Thanks guys, sorry for being a moany little sh*te :P
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