Re: Scared of my own mind - depressed
If you're having even fleeting thoughts of suicide, that's already way overboard in my opinion, you are so worth so much more and do not need even a flickering thought though I really cannot say much because I go through that kinda stuff regularly and soldier on, I went through the darkest waters one can go through and understand it's not possible for me to ever follow that road, but it's a despicable road which is very dangerous if a person does not have people along it who let them know their value and shine light on how they've ended up traveling that road. I hope you know your worth and that you have done nothing to be attacked by such thoughts, it seems a clliche but it's actually transparent proof, suicide is a final solution to problems that can be confronted and worked through, you just need the support, and when you seek support you find very very beautiful people who would do anything for you.
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''...an utter depression of soul which I can compare to no earthly sensation more properly than to the after-dream of the reveller upon opium - the bitter lapse into everyday life, the hideous dropping off of the veil. There was an iciness, a sinking, a sickening of the heart, an unredeemed dreariness of thought which no goading of the imagination could torture into aught of the sublime.''