Re: Over Analyzing and Over Thinking in Relationship
Hi B
I'm sufferin with what docs think is depression at the minute.
Well done you on battlin through your anxiety and PD, you've done great and it's fantastic to hear x
I have a similar problem but not with a boyfriend because I don't have one and have had more than enough bad experience I don't want one right now, but with my best friend. He's male, I'm female, and as ashamed as I am to admit this he's the only real friend I've ever had. I'm 22 now, and I can remember back to the end of Junior school and since then I've only ever had one friend at a time, never for very long, but never how I have the relationship with my my best friend now. I can count....including times without a friend but with a boyfriend...it's about 10 people
My best friend has seen me through the best and worst of the past year (we met about 4 years ago but only came close in the last year or so), and he knows more about me than anyone, even my sister or parents. BUT, I still question when he says he cares about me, that he's not going anywhere, that we'll be friends forever....I don't know why I'm questioning such a good thing it seems crazy but I can't stop and sometimes it near kills me...I see him pretty much everyday and on day's I don't see him it sometimes gets worse because I think he's going to ignore me and go gallavanting off with other friends laughing about me or flirting with them or doing things he doesn't with me.
I've told him I love him because I truly believe I do and the feelings I get confirm it. We both grew up very differently and even now we have different lives....I barely have anyone I can say I know and he is the only one I call my friend right now....he has a couple of handfuls of friends but hundreds of people he knows that he talks to online a lot like facebook and stuff. There have been numerous times where the bad feelings have taken over and I've forgotten completely about the happiness and freedom he gives me, and I've wanted to walk away and leave him....but he says if he didn't want to do it and be here with me he wouldn't....but i still even question that! it's bizarre...and I know it hurts him cos he's told me
It's one of those things I just don't know how to deal with, but I can enitrely get where you are coming from...you aren't alone on this for sure!
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Maybe the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.Unknown.
A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though he knows that you are slightly cracked.Bernard Meltzer.