dont know why im starting off this in here as it definately isnt a sucess.

since leeds meet i havent really left my room.
finally had to this morning at 4am to go to toilet.

havent left since. havent gone to work :( not sucess is it.

dont think im going to get to bradford meet at this rate. :( :(

need to go and get hire car today. this means i need to : leave room, get shower, get dressed and leave house to get it, speak to someone and drive a car i dont know home :(

im hoping to update later saying i done all this.
thats all for now.