I know it is addictive, but which is better - being on and off medication for anxiety (rather than mind altering antidepressants that make you want to top yourself, even after a month and a half, not to mention a whole host of other side effects that are unbearable), or having to drink every day to calm your nerves? I had the best night's sleep in weeks last night, and don't wake up feeling so anxious I am sick any more.

Doctors are too willing to dole out antidepressants like smarties, when they can be highly dangerous in some people (especially young people like me in the high suicide risk group), yet they won't prescribe medication that, if used responsibly when needed, has far fewer side effects and allows you to function as a human being again?

The NHS is a joke. I guess it's back to the wine again, despite the fact that it makes me feel far worse in myself the following day.

I'm sorry for the nature of my post, I just had to get it off my chest.

Catherine x