Over the last day or so, any positive thoughts I was having feel distant. I'm hoping that this setback is more a physical thing than anything else, but you never know. I'm going through some interesting mood swings where I'm having some real "bury my head in the sand" kind of days. Then I'll come out of it and have some real productive days.

These problems that I go through work in funny (ironic) ways, like once I overcome one thing. It seems panic and anxiety plan to fight me in another. That once I overcome one area of fear, another one pops it's ugly little head up, like a batch of weeds in an otherwise pretty garden of flowers. (Of all things, I've never thought of myself as a "pretty" garden of anything.)

Still, I've learned or trying to learn that most of the emotional damage within myself can be repaired through embracing the child within. Then telling that child it's okay, you don't have to fear anymore. I guess I just have to learn to believe it and to trust myself.