Ach, that's ridiculous. Absolutely appalling. When you feel better, you've got a lot to complain about and get angry about. You are very deserving of help, you are valuable. But I guess it's not a good idea to think about the bad system too much right now.

Right now, I'm just congratulating myself on getting through each day, since I've been pretty rock bottom too. It's really ok that you're not ready for work. It's just great that you're alive. Can you focus on enjoying things each day? I have found that pressuring myself into working just stresses me out more.

What's CPN? And OH? It's great you've got an appointment - frustrating that it's not sooner though. Do you have IAPTs in Scotland? That's the service that GPs use to refer patients to therapy.

Therapy can help a lot. It's an anchor in the week that helps you learn about yourself. The mind is an interesting machine.

Can you arrange to meet up with family or friends? It can be hard to let people in, but it can help sometimes.