Hells bells Pulisa. I've done something I said I wouldn't do because there's no point, I've just rung him and left a message and asked him to ring, left my number. I said I'm not expecting him to ring and I'm not going to bother again.

You're disappointed! I'm disappointed, I've chickened out. But it's been 4 weeks now. No idea of his comings and goings. I left 2 messages in the first week. This message sounded less robotic and shouty than those at least. I've not planned what I'm going to say, it'd be even more weird and desperate if I'd been reading it, in my warped mind at least.

So it's wait for the phone call time! When I say he won't ring, I think he'll want to, but he's got a block himself regarding me. Hey, I'm still on the theme of mental blocks!