The system does suck Carnation, you are right.
No one listens to cries for help anymore.
People have to put up and shut up. Trouble is, with mental health it's not that simple.
I don't want to give up, as I have a duty to be a mum, it was my choice. However that option is so so tempting when things are black.

Sidiam it is so nice of you to offer support. Your thoughts mean a lot to me. I know no one can make things right for me, but I can not tell you how much I appreciate people's supportive words right now xxx