So I've been dealing with awful sexual intrusive thoughts and lately the thoughts have been projecting onto other people. For example tonight, I was watching TV and I had a horrible awful disgusting intrusive sexual thought that involved two characters but not myself. There's was no anxiety and no guilt (I hate typing this) and for second it felt like I was going to laugh or smile about it and that's crazy to me. I've cried buckets and buckets over thoughts like this so why would I ever want to laugh about something I find so horrible? Am I losing it? I just can't seem to win.