I've got my appointment Tuesday to see my breast specialist about a lump.
I'm really scared now it's soon and convinced he is going to tell me bad news.


On top of this he is going to suggest another mammogram and this will be my fourth! I'm scared all these mammos have finally caught up with me and the radiation is what's caused any bad news.

I just want to enjoy my life but it's impossible with this over my head all the time!

The thing is even IF I get the all clear, I'll be back to prodding and finding more things and then face more tests in the future as always..

I'm tired now :(