Thank you so much Dave1. Reassurance however is backfiring majorly on me. I saw the hottest guy with abs today at my swimming carnival. Do you personally think it's not normal to fall for a guy who likes you back? That how my crushes have started. I feel like I'm forcing a gross attraction to girls which kills me more. I realised today that I might be different and get so anxious about this topic. But I also realised how much I want kids in my life and how I need a loving man there to support me.

Have you experienced hocd before?