No need to apologise. No need at all but PLEASE make it your absolute priority to book an appointment with a therapist who has experience with HA? I'd also say don't help others who are also struggling with perceived ALS? You just haven't got the mental resources at the moment and will be suggestible to any additional symptoms they have too xx

The only thing "eating you up" is HA. What happened to panic cancer and your utter conviction that you had that?