i am having some of the worst ocd of my life right now. it's manifesting itself in HA/food safety as some of you may know.
I'm seriously considering trying lexapro, but am scared to death of it. I have had instrusive thoughts before, the what if i do this or that stuff, and ever since i read that the side effects could be suicidal or homicidal thoughts, or even drug psychosis, i am too terrified to take any SSRI. ( i did take paxil for a bout of depression for about 3 years, and it worked well. that was about 22 years ago though).

has anyone else had to deal with this fear? how did you handle it?