They are the worst things to ever exist. It's been one whole year now that I've been suffering with disturbing intrusive thoughts. My instinct is to just fight the intrusive thought but for some reason it fights back harder. It's so hard. I dont want to "see" the things my brain randomly chucks at me. This reminds me of when I was 8 or 9 and dealt with the exact same thing. I'm almost 22 now and feel exactly how I felt when I was 8 dealing with intrusive thoughts. Just as scared, just as disgusted. How sad it is to live with a malfunctioning brain.