Yeah I'm the same! Some days I feel it and think it's smaller, other days I'm like omg that is massive. Definitely agree we should probably stop poking whatever they are.
You should be proud! Really brave. Im speaking to a psychologist about my ocd at the moment, and she thinks not getting this checked is really holding me back. So, I've agreed to make an appointment on thurs (they do same day appointments). I'm definitely going to go as I can't deal with the limbo anymore X