hey guys

i need to let out my worry before it gets so overcrowded in my head.

heres the situation:

my brother is getting married and my soon to be sister in law Maria is haveing her hen night this saturday! i said i would go like 3 weeks ago thinking maybe i could find an excuse.

i am just so afraid that i cannot go home and that i will panic and ruin it for everyone. i haven't been out and about without panic since it started

i need to know how to survive.

xx any help xx