morning,

i woke up in the night for a toilet break and felt so so terrible and so negative. I haven't felt that -ve in ages. I did go back to sleep but woke up feeling so bad and had all those thoughts of, its never going to get better, i was doing so well, nothing will help, i'm stuck forever.. Just stuck with so much negativity, it shocked me. I even had a few tears and i haven't cried for weeks.
i was worried about writing here for feeling like i've failed in my progress. I dont know why i have such a problem with feeling a failure, i guess i'm used to keeping a stiff upper lip and saying everythings fine. i'm not going to write off the day yet though but I just feel so down today and hopeless.
sorry [Sigh...][:I]
Lisa
xxx