:( hi i'm a full time carer and have lots of problems myself

i 'm a full time carer for my dad who has deppression and he has panic attacks as well as having to take tablets all the time [Sigh...]
i was sexuallyabused as a child which set off me self harming myself then my mam died so i had to go in to foster care which i hated then my foster parent died just a year after my dad mam died which made me just want to get free from life alotgether i know people say it was not my fault but i dont really belive this as i have be told that i am a bad person all my life and that bad things happen to bad people at the moment i am going through counselling as i was raped last april so i guess i am just trying to hang on :( leanne